Its like we live in a world (or it might just be me) thats like “oh a man should be with a woman they shall be faithful to one another” right. Not saying that its says that in the bible anywhere or anything like that. Its just kinda a given. But then as we get (or i got) older its like “be with someone for who they are”, “its okay to be gay”, or “be with someone for love not money or fame” blah blah blah. When it comes down to it though, your with that person because you want to be. Your genuinely wanting to be with this person and hopefully they want to be with you. Or in some cases hoping they dont cuz your a weirdo and you like that someone doesnt want you or whatever.
Then everything else falls in, you want them to be faithful to you, you want honesty and blah blah blah. What if they dont want that? what if they want to be with you and have others to? Does that change your decision? You no longer want them anymore because of what they want. Now breaking it down like that seems stupid. Now because of what they want and dont want changes what you really want. it cant work if they dont want what you want. period you cant force someone to be happy with something and settle. And no i do not believe a person should be with another and that other can mess around. No, thats not what im saying. I’m just stating facts. originally it was about what you want and that was that person right. they were charming or funny. Maybe can cook or loves the same things you love. I dont know but it wasnt because they wanted to be with you and only you. thats not what yall talk about on first dates or in like first weeks in dating even months. It soon maybe turn into that. as a relationship grows you then discuss the “rules” but why should there be rules? they wasnt rules before. werent you happy before? why change now? to become a family? to do “whats right”? Or is it because thats what you were taught and now its in you and you feel thats the only way to live. But who says its the right way?
I’m not so sure what i’ve gotten myself into but i think im on to something.
Im in a relationship and of course I dont want my man with another woman. I dont even want him in the strip club looking at them. but then as our relationship grew and i seen what he likes and points he made about relationships and i question myself and everything i thought i knew about them and what i wanted and why i wanted that. and i know what yall are probably thinking about me, “oh he running game on you”, “he got a good dumb one” or whatever. Trust me i know. but think about it. when you first get serious with a person, yall arent serious at first right? Yall are just two people, friends maybe, then you develop these other feelings. making you wanna spend more time with each other, get to know them more. Maybe even stop talking to other people because you love talking and spending time with this new person you’ve met. I believe for some, it may be that too but kinda different. instead of wanting to keep talking and spending time with that one person its like that with more than one person. Now before yall judge me think about it. why cant that be okay? why cant someone just never want to commit to one person. they like meeting new people, getting to know them, and moving on the next to do it all over again? Think hard and say it out loud.
it doesnt make sense. its like brain wash. i hate thinking this hard because i go even deeper. like why is this the way of life? why is man and woman the correct way? why does it hurt so bad to where i’d become violent to know my man doesnt only find me attractive. Maybe wouldnt mind having sex with a few other people besides me. If i was okay with it, he probably would. I mean my mans a good guy, But how many men you think would pass that up? and why would they? its because of what they were taught.
we can be so easily brainwashed. if i could i could kill all of you and start my own family of people i guess and teach you all new ways to live and such. and life would be that. and that life that im teaching and making the new “right way to live” will be followed and passed down and down and then it would be in you to live that way. you have to. no other way is right. because thats all your were taught. fucked up right. now for those “technical, that will never happen” people just stop reading because everything you will ready is off a “what if” type of thing. you gotta be open to alot of shit to fully understand what im saying. really like just forget everything you think is right and take in what im saying.
Its fucked up right.?
So Im writing a book. So far it might be titled “Out of The Box”. I think it might be about my life and what i learned. but it might be another thing i never finish lol. but i also wanted to write about my life but i never finished what i started. its so bad cuz i dont even remember starting to write one. but ive thought about so much that i KNOW i did some point in my life, start to write about it. lol….but i started again and so far its coming along sweet….care to read?
I use Paint. Net; Photoscape; Gifyo; and Makeagif c: I use those to make GIFS.
still dont get it lol…ill google it tho…i never made one before
Gah, making GIFS are so fun!
How Do You Make Em..???
